Who is Brendan?

I’m Brendan Sullivan.

By day, I’m a firefighter and paramedic. Someone who’s spent years running toward emergencies, making split-second decisions, and dealing with situations most people spend their lives hoping to avoid. I’m also a veteran, a dad, a creator… and apparently someone who keeps voluntarily making terrible decisions for entertainment.

Welcome!

This site is home to I’m Brendan and This Scares Me a series built around one simple idea: There’s a difference between adrenaline… and fear. Adrenaline is the call dropping at the firehouse. Adrenaline is chaos you didn’t choose. Fear? Fear is personal. Fear is stepping out of a plane at 18,000 feet over Hawaii when nobody made you do it. Fear is spending the night in the basement of the Lizzie Borden house. Fear is walking onto a comedy stage with a microphone and no plan B.

That’s what this is.

I’ve always chased adventure. While traveling the world, trying questionable things, creating ridiculous content, and somehow ending up on national TV in elf tights pillow-fighting strangers for charity. (Long story.) But this project is different. This is me intentionally stepping into situations that make me uncomfortable, second-guess myself, and occasionally question every decision that brought me there. And filming the whole thing. No fake tough guy act. No pretending I’m fearless. No “I totally had this under control” nonsense. Just real reactions, chaos, humor, and the occasional moment where I genuinely regret everything. If you’re here because you like adventure, documentary storytelling, comedy, controlled bad decisions, or just watching another grown man unravel in high definition…

You’re in the right place.

This is just the beginning.

- Brendan